Last night they posted the workout. GRACE. That’s 30 clean and jerks for time. Rx for women is 95#. I REALLY wanted to do 95#. I texted Jarrod to ask permission, but deep down, I knew that this was a bad idea given all my shoulder issues that I’ve touched on.
Me: Can I do RX or is that crazy town.
Jarrod: Depends on that shoulder
Me: Okay. We can discuss tomorrow. Also easing back in from being sick.
So, yea. I think that the lesson we should all take from this is, if you have to ask “permission” you know that you probably shouldn’t be doing it. I wasn’t asking for that extra push to go heavy because I was scared. I was asking because I knew it was likely not the best decision and needed someone to talk me down. Jarrod, knowing that this is my m.o. answered with that reply knowing I would likely come to the conclusion that I needed to – which was 95# was out of the question, given where I was with my shoulder issues.
When I walked in, I told Jarrod of the conclusion that I came to. We talked about how I was going to scale the weight, and decided that I would go 75#, which is 10# heavier than November when we did Barbells for Boobs. and we started warming up, I felt really good. We did a barbell warm-up and 45# seemed like a feather. I did a few reps at 65#, then 75# … The thought of going Rx started creeping in my head again. I went up to Jarrod and he just looked at me and said “75# or lighter”. Thank goodness Craic has coaches that aren’t all about going heavy. They take time to get to know their athletes and know when to push them hard or pull them back when they get too ahead of themselves. Jarrod’s two stipulations for me were “Can you do this weight in under 5 minutes?” and “Can you do this weight and guarantee me you won’t hurt your shoulder more.” Anything than 75# was going to likely cause strain on my shoulders, and deep down I knew this.
I partnered with Angela and really pushed her to get around 5 minutes for her time. She’s stronger than she thinks she is and did a great job! I think she finished in about 5:17. I don’t remember her weight. But she busted her ass. Then I did my heat. I wasn’t sure what the rep scheme was that I was going to use. I did the first 10 unbroken, then I did a set of four, then a set of three, then sets of two…and then singles. Tried to take minimal breaks between reps when I dropped the bar. I finished at 3:30 exactly. I’m pretty happy with my time considering the small amount of time I’ve spent in the gym the last couple of weeks and my shoulder. My shoulder felt great, and I had no issues. Really happy that Jarrod kept me where I needed to be this morning. As he said to me later “Grace isn’t going anywhere. Won’t it be cool to do it Rx in October?”
I know that this funk is that I’m simply of being held back and every time I look at a WoD the night before or go into the gym, I’m reminded of all the things I can’t do. And I need to stop focusing on that aspect of it all. I need to continually remind myself that this situation isn’t permanent unless I choose for it to be and what I’m doing in the short term will dictate my life in the long term. I just need to be patient and work on easing back into stuff. It’s easier said than done, but hey – I’m a work in progress 🙂